mad?? hurt?? jealous??

i dont noe how to describe my feeling now..its all mixed up..i also dont noe if i should feel this way..but its just a feeling of losing the one u love..whether family,friends or etc...it also a mix feeling of annoyed n irritated..i just hate this feeling n the person..S**T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont want to get mad to the person..im mad to myself at the first place to let them know each other..i noe i shouldnt let them know..but things already happen theres no point of regretting..so i come to a conclusion..i wouldnt care what they gonna do anymore..i dont give a damn on what to happen..this is it!! bye..

p/s: for U..if u mess with him u're messing up with me too..